SORRY...

I have been really busy/lazy lately... So, much has been going on since I moved into my apt... I have been traveling back on forth to MS to visit my Dad since he moved back from England...

Umm... I got really sick... Blood pressure is high... my thyroid is still retarded... (( in every meaning of the word it is slow... )) and there might be a possibility of me having uterine fibroids (( joy is the life I lead )) I had my ultra sound today... So, they should call and let me know soon... If I hadn't lost my cell phone that would be great... I couldn't remember my bf's cp num... SO, he is going to call them tomo and pass it along...

Umm, the worst part... today my cockatiel Chicken passed away... I am really really bummed about it... I loved her so much... I know its a bird get over it... But its more than that... I got her and her siblings when they were babies (( like seriously babies no feathers screaming poop machines )) and hand fed and raised them... the other two are social birds but chicken only liked me and to be honest I only liked chicken the other too are annoying (( to me anyway ))... Anyway... it was really sad... And because I live in an apt I am waiting till this weekend to bury her... I guess the most morbid thing about the whole ordeal is we wrapped her up and put her in a plastic bag... I almost labeled if CHICKEN... but if someone comes over and looks in my freezer and decides to cook or something (( I know Highly unlikely )) they might unwrap her and freak out... So... she is in an unmarked ziploc freezer bag...

Umm... its 544 am... and I should be asleep but I just found out about the Hello Kitty MAC collection coming out so that kind of made me feel better... except I don't have 1000$ to buy every single piece of the collection... So, I narrowed it down to 319.50$ but like that is going to help me at all I don't have a penny to my name... I am actually over drawn on my bank((which I don't know how that happened, I am so careful))... I need to scrounge about 40$ just to break even...

AND I DON"T HAVE A JOB! (( life is really shitty right now )) I have applied for like a billion jobs but AZ job market sucks butt... So, no luck... Being a hooker is probably my best bet of getting money... but that job line isn't really for me...

I just don't know what to do... I need money I need to work... if I wasn't so sickly I would sell some of my organs on the black market...


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